Music and Lyrics

There are a few things in my life that would be really hard to live without and one of them is music. I find that I always have something playing in the background of my life. Even as I write this post I'm listening to the sounds of Aaron Keyes "you're working for our good... your plans are for us to prosper. You've not forgotten us. You're with us in the fire and the flood. Faithful forever, perfect in love. You are sovereign over us." I mean seriously, how can words like those not pierce your soul?

This week music and lyrics have literally stopped me in my tracks. It's been a bit of a doozy week and I sometimes find that I lack the words to describe the feelings and desires of my soul. Thus enters music, like David Crowder's "Shadows"-

"When shadows fall on us, we will not fear, we will remember. When all seems lost, we're thrown and tossed, We remember the cost, We rest in Him, the shadow of the cross."

God is our strength and refuge in times of trouble. In times of doubt and fear He's our portion and our courage.

Then there's the sappy country songs like the latest from Taylor Swift and Blake Shelton that just bring tears to this country girl's eyes as I listen... it all seems so unreal, unattainable, like the constant carrot that I can never reach. But every human soul still longs for that connection with another.

"Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain, kiss me on the sidewalk. Take away the pain. Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile!"

"God gave me you for the ups and downs. God gave me you for the days of doubt. And for when I think I've lost my way, there are no words here left to say. It's true - God gave me you!" - (shoot! I want to be this to someone, someday!)

And the funny thing is, though I have something amazing staring me in the face, all I want to do is run. Run from the possibility, run from the pain that may come, run from the struggles, run from the love, just RUN away from anything!

So here I sit and ponder - begging the Lord for answers, for clarity, for confidence and courage. And all He keeps telling me is to rest and stay. Running is not an option. And then I hear 'if it's encouraging others, let them encourage". Dang it Lord - I don't want to right now! It's too scary, too risky! I just sense him saying in response, "I never said it would be easy..."

Oy! :/